is a scary scary thing. I think about my mom at 30. I was 10 years old and I thought my mom and dad were so freaking old. Is that how my niece sees me? She is 7 after all.
I think back to all the things I wanted to do with my life. I wanted to be all the things other little girls wanted. A princess, the president, a mother, a ballerina, a vet, a doctor, a school teacher. I took the same road that every other little girl took. But I detoured like some do once high school graduation happens.
I don't regret the time between 12th grade and the first semester of my freshman year. The only time it bothers me is when I start calculating how old I will be when I met my first patient as a professional. (That will be somewhere around the age of 36 or so)
The friends I made and the places I visited made me the student I am today. I have very little regret in my almost 30 years. Little things I might change if I could redo it. But one change in the past would mean one change in the future. I am working hard on liking who I am today and I don't think I would want that one change from the past.
The few friends I have kept in touch with from high school are all approaching if not have reached 30 also. The ones that are happily married are okay with it. Some of the single ones wish that they were in relationships or marriages and are not so okay with it.
I don't wish to be married. I don't really wish to be in a relationship right now. I am okay with turning 30.
The one thing that is bothering me, I have stubborn grey hairs popping up. I have no views on plastic surgery other than if it makes you happy, go for it. I never really gave a thought to how I would take wrinkles and grey hairs.
So, while I am okay with being almost 30, I am not okay with my eye's looking tired and the cost of having my hair colored. It looks like I will be investing in some of the eye creams that have those annoying commercials and looking for a cheap (but decent) hair salon and finding my "signature" color that covers all the pesky greys and keeps me looking young for the next decade.
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