Washington, here I come!

Flight leaves at 6:35 in the morning. I didn't know there was a 6:35 in the morning. Really.

I am a bit fatalistic. I don't really care to fly. I dream of death before I take flight.

Twelve days of not being in Alabama. It is gonna be bliss. My aunt said that it has been a bit chilly the past few days so pack some warm clothes. God I can't wait.

I went to see mom last weekend. I tried to hang out with a few friends. They all forgot I was coming to town. I realize that I take simple mistakes to heart and blow them out of proportion. I see a forgotten phone call as a massive insult when in reality everyone has a life and they get caught up in that life. But in my mind, it means that my friendship means nothing to them. I am so easily forgotten because I am insignificant. I don't know how to change this about me. I need to though.

Callie signed her death wish today. As I was finishing up packing she knocked over my bedside lamp breaking the bulb. I am tired of cleaning up messes that she has made. I am tired of my stuff being destroyed. So, off she goes to my parents house. To live out her life on 40 acres of paradise. Now she can kill bugs instead of lamps and flip flops.

One night

I want one night where I can lay down and not hear the voices in my head.

I want one night where I sleep and don't dream of him.

I want one night where I can enjoy the peace and quiet.

I want one night where I don't have to deal with my family.

I want one night where I can be me without feeling like me is not good enough.

I want one night where I can do anything I please.

I want one night where I have no worries.

I want one night where I have no fears.

I want one night where I don't think of what might of been.

I want one night...

Vacation? What is that?

Summer semester is OVER! Rest and relaxation. Really. My last day of work is tomorrow. Thank God. As much as I bitch about this job, I did tell my boss that I would work next semester if she didn't have anyone to work. I mean, it is a steady pay check and I can study while on the job.

I made a C in chemistry. Thank God. I had to make a C or higher in order to get my financial aid back. So fucking happy.

I am taking 16 hours next semester. General chemistry 2 with lab, Stats, Classical Mythology, Career Planning, and Medical Terminology. Should be fun-filled.

Leighann's birthday was the 3rd. We went to Orange Beach and stayed the night with her and the family. It was a blast. Can't wait for Katie to turn 21 so she can join in on the festivities!

Heading home this weekend. Way to much laundry to do.

Tubing trip on Tuesday.

Washington on Thursday.

Excited doesn't begin to describe how I feel.